10-minute free write!
So this is a new experiment for me. This is called a 10-minute free write. It is something a former professor of mine Dr. Reuben Roth at Laurentian has told me about, as a strategy for breaking out of a mind-numbingly bad state of writers' block; which seems to be something I struggle with in my career. Struggle issue number #55766512 perhaps. An exageration of course, but it feels this way. So I am trying this out, because I really need to be productive...and something always seems to stop me from getting fully focussed. Plus, perhaps I will produce some form of social knowledge in this exercise? I haven't produced much of that in ages.
What does that mean? To be fully focussed? I am focussed on many things all the time, but not always stuff I should be. Or is that just indicative of yet another power inbalance in my personal micro-zeitgeist? Yes I have a personal micro-zeitgeist. Get over it you relational thinkers out there. There is such a thing as a sociology of one. So bite me fuckers.
How is that for some form of focus? Tangent surfing and centralized anger in one pass.
OK so I had my first real fucking bad day at school since returning to my grad studies. I got a paper back with a grade on it, of which, shall I say, I am not confortable with publicising it's numerical value online so I won't. Let me just say that, the grade I got...I FUCKING NEVER GET ON ANYTHING. NEVER EVER. I'm a graduate student damnit! I don't get mediocre grades. I am not a master at anything. Yet, without the means to communicate my ideas, is something I am not. At least the professor gave us in the course who want top reject our paper grades the opportunity to submit a re-write. That is generous. I don't know if that would be common practice in any graduate program, but I guess the prof is extraordinary. He is a very cool guy. I TA for him as well. I have noted on many occasions that I find his pedagogy confusing at times. That could be my issue though. Many find him clear and intellectually accessible. I find it difficult to find positionality in his course though, as I do at times in my program overall (Masters of Sociology, Laurentian Univeristy). I don't claim mastery. That seems to be a problem. And right now, I have neither the energy or words to define what that means. Simply put, we never know anything fully and all we have are questions and breaches where ideas come from. It's something I get from my research in sexuality; it being a theoretical taste or sense. It's as if I can sort of sense theory in something, but I am not yet ready to actually apply language to it. Maybe this sort of exercise will help me do that.
I will step it up though. I need to get through the term the best I can and just work as hard as I can. I want to enjoy this though. I desperately do. I feel on many levels I already do, which is good. And maybe I am enjoying what I can.
This was good. Again tomorrow.
Richard Birch
What does that mean? To be fully focussed? I am focussed on many things all the time, but not always stuff I should be. Or is that just indicative of yet another power inbalance in my personal micro-zeitgeist? Yes I have a personal micro-zeitgeist. Get over it you relational thinkers out there. There is such a thing as a sociology of one. So bite me fuckers.
How is that for some form of focus? Tangent surfing and centralized anger in one pass.
OK so I had my first real fucking bad day at school since returning to my grad studies. I got a paper back with a grade on it, of which, shall I say, I am not confortable with publicising it's numerical value online so I won't. Let me just say that, the grade I got...I FUCKING NEVER GET ON ANYTHING. NEVER EVER. I'm a graduate student damnit! I don't get mediocre grades. I am not a master at anything. Yet, without the means to communicate my ideas, is something I am not. At least the professor gave us in the course who want top reject our paper grades the opportunity to submit a re-write. That is generous. I don't know if that would be common practice in any graduate program, but I guess the prof is extraordinary. He is a very cool guy. I TA for him as well. I have noted on many occasions that I find his pedagogy confusing at times. That could be my issue though. Many find him clear and intellectually accessible. I find it difficult to find positionality in his course though, as I do at times in my program overall (Masters of Sociology, Laurentian Univeristy). I don't claim mastery. That seems to be a problem. And right now, I have neither the energy or words to define what that means. Simply put, we never know anything fully and all we have are questions and breaches where ideas come from. It's something I get from my research in sexuality; it being a theoretical taste or sense. It's as if I can sort of sense theory in something, but I am not yet ready to actually apply language to it. Maybe this sort of exercise will help me do that.
I will step it up though. I need to get through the term the best I can and just work as hard as I can. I want to enjoy this though. I desperately do. I feel on many levels I already do, which is good. And maybe I am enjoying what I can.
This was good. Again tomorrow.
Richard Birch
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